My love.

You know, I have been trying to refrain from talking about things that are too personal, things that are going on in my life right now. This morning is the morning I open up a little bit more.

I have been in this relationship with this really great guy, for about three and a half years... we've known each other for four. We have had a really hard year this last year, financially, emotionally, physically, mentally... we've done a good job at taking it out on each other. I think it's done two things, one... made me more aware of my own strength as a woman, and two... made me appreciate the little things.

We have been getting along a lot better, we have bumps in the road as with every relationship... but things are ironing themselves out. I pray and hope everyday we work things out and make this last because I love him with everything I have. I've made mistakes in my past that allowed me to let stuff slip through my fingers... I am trying my damnedest not to make that same mistake.

My man is a hard worker. Everything he does, he does with all he has... whether it's loving, fighting, working, being a dad, a son, a friend... There's one thing I've noticed. He's always there for people when they need him, even when they dont deserve it.

We have two beautiful, sweet sons together, and I'll always love him for giving me the gift of being a mother twice over. I know I've been mad at him for a long time... maybe because I felt like a failure myself. We were struggling and I felt like all I could do was watch us drown.

I have made the conscience decision from this point on to love him no matter what comes. I'll stand beside him, behind him and in front of him at any given point--- even when he doesnt do the same for me. We can't both be the "all or nothing" person in the relationship.. someone has to give a little bit... and since I think he gave a lot in the begining.... its not too much to ask for me to give a little bit myself.

We may fight and disagree about things.... but i'll be loving him while we do... and when we're done I'll make sure to let him know just how much I do love him.

I love you Sonny Ray Mays.