Hope.

I talk to my friends about their relationships, and they all open up to me. I try to keep my mouth shut, but the older I get, the harder it gets. If he ain't worth a damn I'm more likely to tell you nowadays. I used to sit there and listen to my girls while they'd pour their hearts out to me, but after going through my own heartaches I've come to this conclusion.

Love is nothing but a Hope in our heart. If we love someone, no matter how bad it gets, we just keep hoping it'll change. I mean, yeah, some of us get up and walk away.. but after how many battles.. how many arguments? how many "one last chances"? How many excuses do we have to make up for our significant other before we realize that we're making up the excuses, and accepting them before they even come through the door...

How can we watch the clock, knowing he's out with someone else in our hearts, and when his lies come pouring out at 4am about where he was, we sigh with relief. We know if we push to hard the cracks will show so we hug them and kiss them, and when they reject our move for more... we accept the excuses of them being tired.... sore... even though we know its lies.

How can we feel the burn of his hand across our cheeks and not want to run in the other direction? how come some of us cling harder... try harder to make them see it doesn't have to be that way... hope for the exception, pray for his love to return?

When he wraps his hand around your neck and slams you against the wall...will you walk away then? Or will you beg HIS forgiveness instead? Will you tell him how sorry you were to make him mad, hurt him... when he reaches back to hit you will you flinch?

When you know his alcoholism is not going to end... and his drug use is serious... and he will never chose ur over his addictions... will u stand beside him or walk away? Love is Hope. Hope is Love. Everything we expect out of love is merely a simple hope... i hope he never cheats on me, beats on me, leaves me for another woman, decides to put the bottle down, asks me to marry him.... i hope he stops leaving me lonely.. i hope it changes soon.... and eventually when our love is spent.... we walk away.. do we take hope with us? after being broken and undone so many ways... do we continue to hope, love.. have faith in another person?