Going back to school... ?

Sometimes, I think I've let myself down. I think I could be something really important in life, maybe not in YOUR life, but in someones life... you know what I mean? I have to keep reminding myself, that right now I am trying to do what's best for my children, but then I think, am I? Maybe I should go back to school, they are old enough now to be in daycare... I think I am officially ready to take that step. But Emotionally there are a lot of things going on that make me wonder if now is the right time to invest in my education... I am so frustrated by my own indecision and of course by my own scaredy cat social anxiety... the thought of being surrounded by new people and doing something for myself... it all seems like a waste...grrr see what I mean?! ... lol..